[ And it does, because his footing has changed. He knows Kagari senses it, the difference in their address. How he's leveled out, sharp words falling by the wayside. There are turning points in everyone's life and Ginoza has been through his second one. First it'd been his father becoming a latent criminal, leaving him and his mother behind to deal with the fallout. With the stigma. He survived it all but not without scraping away at his edges, building layers of armor.
Then it'd been Kogami, treading the same path. Sasayama's death pushing him over the edge where Ginoza couldn't join him.
Except he had. Masaoka was gone for good this time. He'd never hear his father's gruff voice telling a joke, nor catch the careful lines of worry around his eyes. He'd cared about his son and Gino had thrown it in his face. It'd been a mistake, something he couldn't take back. But he's determined to learn from it, apply it to something he has control over.
Like here and now, with Kagari. No longer are they divided by roles and he means to hold out a hand to the redhead a second time. Genuinely, without the prompting of Sybil, without the impressive record. Just because he trusts Kagari and wants something good for him, even if it'll never be truly good under Sybil's watchful eye. ]
Neither of us are in for a long life, you know that. A full life– maybe that's still possible.
[It's a genuine question; Division 1 has always been his home, the closest to family he's had since he was five years old, but he and Gino lived in different worlds. Kagari doesn't really understand why his lack of antipathy--or truly, his opinion at all--should mean anything to the former Inspector. He was a nobody to him, after all, just another wild beast to handle. It seems weird to Kagari that that should change merely because Gino himself became a latent criminal. Maybe he's lonely, without Kou-chan around, with Akane-chan more busy now. Kagari of all people can relate to that.]
Y'know, this thing's not gonna work if you feel like you gotta apologize for being who you were.
[Kagari had walked into the MWPSB with a giant chip on his shoulder, and Kogami had surprised him. He'd been an Inspector too, once, but he knew how to set Kagari at ease, how to relate to him. They had been equals, for the time Kagari had known him. With Gino, it already seems like he's going to carry around their former difference in power like his own personal sin to bear.]
Anyway. You know what I meant. [He'd never experience the life of a "normal person", after all, no matter how easy Akane tried to make things on them.] But I always had a fun time being an Enforcer, so yeah, I'm staying on board.
[ It's a valid point and it's one he knows he's going to struggle with for a while. If there was one thing that could be said of him is that he never did anything by halves. Once he finally made up his mind, he went full bore– that included making amends. He hadn't known, exactly, how Kagari was going to react. Or rather, he'd spun himself up anxiously, a thousand insults and pricking comments coming back to him in perfect clarity.
Hindsight was a cruel mistress. ]
No, I'd been mistaken. I never want to be so short-sighted again. [ Not when– no, he won't think about that here. ]
A fun time? I suppose I shouldn't be surprised that you enjoy the adrenaline rush.
[Kagari....rolls his eyes. Actually, he's kind of done with this self-flagellating now? Gino can keep doing it on his own time.]
So what do you want from me? To hate you? Or for this to be a whole Thing where I gotta keep telling you we're square? You wanna make shit up to me? Don't talk to me with all this pity. Ohhh, I'm so sorry I was shitty to you and made your life hard? You and the rest of Japan. Get over it.
[......well, if Gino expected to get bitched at, he. finally got it? there's only so much charitable Kagari's got in him.]
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[ And it does, because his footing has changed. He knows Kagari senses it, the difference in their address. How he's leveled out, sharp words falling by the wayside. There are turning points in everyone's life and Ginoza has been through his second one. First it'd been his father becoming a latent criminal, leaving him and his mother behind to deal with the fallout. With the stigma. He survived it all but not without scraping away at his edges, building layers of armor.
Then it'd been Kogami, treading the same path. Sasayama's death pushing him over the edge where Ginoza couldn't join him.
Except he had. Masaoka was gone for good this time. He'd never hear his father's gruff voice telling a joke, nor catch the careful lines of worry around his eyes. He'd cared about his son and Gino had thrown it in his face. It'd been a mistake, something he couldn't take back. But he's determined to learn from it, apply it to something he has control over.
Like here and now, with Kagari. No longer are they divided by roles and he means to hold out a hand to the redhead a second time. Genuinely, without the prompting of Sybil, without the impressive record. Just because he trusts Kagari and wants something good for him, even if it'll never be truly good under Sybil's watchful eye. ]
Neither of us are in for a long life, you know that. A full life– maybe that's still possible.
:o !!
[It's a genuine question; Division 1 has always been his home, the closest to family he's had since he was five years old, but he and Gino lived in different worlds. Kagari doesn't really understand why his lack of antipathy--or truly, his opinion at all--should mean anything to the former Inspector. He was a nobody to him, after all, just another wild beast to handle. It seems weird to Kagari that that should change merely because Gino himself became a latent criminal. Maybe he's lonely, without Kou-chan around, with Akane-chan more busy now. Kagari of all people can relate to that.]
Y'know, this thing's not gonna work if you feel like you gotta apologize for being who you were.
[Kagari had walked into the MWPSB with a giant chip on his shoulder, and Kogami had surprised him. He'd been an Inspector too, once, but he knew how to set Kagari at ease, how to relate to him. They had been equals, for the time Kagari had known him. With Gino, it already seems like he's going to carry around their former difference in power like his own personal sin to bear.]
Anyway. You know what I meant. [He'd never experience the life of a "normal person", after all, no matter how easy Akane tried to make things on them.] But I always had a fun time being an Enforcer, so yeah, I'm staying on board.
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Hindsight was a cruel mistress. ]
No, I'd been mistaken. I never want to be so short-sighted again. [ Not when– no, he won't think about that here. ]
A fun time? I suppose I shouldn't be surprised that you enjoy the adrenaline rush.
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So what do you want from me? To hate you? Or for this to be a whole Thing where I gotta keep telling you we're square? You wanna make shit up to me? Don't talk to me with all this pity. Ohhh, I'm so sorry I was shitty to you and made your life hard? You and the rest of Japan. Get over it.
[......well, if Gino expected to get bitched at, he. finally got it? there's only so much charitable Kagari's got in him.]